As I just finished my first-ever vision board, it couldn’t have come at a better time. I’m currently rephrasing some of my internal negative beliefs, and interrupting old patterns. It actually feels a little uncomfortable and even silly, but I’ve gone all in, so there is no other option, as far as I’m concerned.
And by all in, I mean ALL IN – I even dyed my hair blue (something I’ve wanted to do for years), so there’s no going back to the corporate world here. I’m working at least 10 hours a day, typically more, but it is pleasant even at its worst, so it doesn’t feel like that long. I’m researching, attending webinars, setting up systems that I hope will last me for some time, and submitting proposals to clients in the meantime. Oh, and the actual work of what we do-the writing itself, lol!
On the weekends, which I have finally reclaimed for myself, you’ll find me on a river somewhere within a 200-mile radius, kayaking and camping – I’m slowly learning to take my relaxation time seriously, too.
I’m changing a whole bunch of things because I’m tired of being unhappy and unfulfilled. I’m tired of working for someone else and ready to go my own way. Is it scary? Oh yeah – you betcha! There are days when I feel downright nauseated, I’m so terrified of what I’m doing!
But then I spend some time in contemplation and reflection. I let myself just be for a little while – the river is a good place for this. And that tiny spark inside of me is slowly growing into an ember. And as much as I’m afraid, I’m more excited to experience it as it bursts into flame.
And something about that resonates so deeply inside me that I know I’m on the right path, and I have a faith in myself that I haven’t had in a long time. Faith that I’m doing the right thing, for the right reasons, at the right time. It doesn’t really get much better than that, does it?